I decided to cyberstalk an Ex of mine only to discover he died a few years ago at the age of 40. What do I find freaky about this? The tragedy of a genuine, kind hearted person having his life cut short at such a young age and me wasting my life writing silly blogs. Or that is was someone that I knew? I will NEVER see him ever again, no chance. It's not that I am upset over losing him, it's tragic yes, but I haven't known him for 10 years now, so it's not like he was a huge part of my life now. In truth it won't effect my daily life at all.
But it has made me think about all the different paths that have been available to me in my life and the decisions I have made that have led me to where I am today - hence the title.
Ponder the what if's, it's the choose your own adventure of your life except you only get one go at it. Every other alternative ends up in a script, a story or maybe even a blog. How would my life be now, if...? Where would I be, what would I be doing, who would I be with, and the big one - would I be happier? Of course I would be happier - they are my fantasies and dreams now so naturally, things are better in them. Though there is also the idea of despite choosing a different path, you still end up in the same place.
For example: If I had somehow ended up with this particular person, maybe he would have died at 40 no matter what and I would still end up single on the other side of 40. In that case I might not be happier, I think I might be more screwed up than I am now. If we had stayed together over that time, there is a lot I might not have done, people I would not have met, And I would still be me. Well, me with a different set of memories and who's to say in that universe I didn't fantasise about the life I actually had.
Go Ahead - make a choice!
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