I have no excuse for not writing at the moment coz I am pretty much doing nothing these days.
Since my last post, I have been gyming it, got a haircut, went surfing, schmoozed a bit at an indie film forum, done a few tv series marathons, got a hangover, over eaten, seen every movie i want to see, caught up with a few friends, and even got all my tax bits off to the accountant.
But this week I got bored! I think I need to work again now, or find more people that can play during the day. Or find friends that will actually call me from time to time to catch up or at the least check in. I just realized I didn't make one phone call in or out all weekend!
So to counter this what have I done? (not a lot really) I have started dreaming up what to do next. Right now I want to move to another country and re-invent myself. My bestie pointed out that this brings mixed feelings for her. On one hand she is excited for the new adventure I will embark on but sad that I won't be around. I get it, but seriously, who would miss me if I went away for a few months, maybe more? I'm lucky to see my friends every few months as it is.
Oh trust me there is still a lot I could do - I could do a huge house clean, I could tackle some sewing projects that are buried away, I could write that award winning screenplay, I could research all manor of things from film festivals to internships in New York to holidaying in Thailand to renovating the apartment but these don't encourage much social interaction which is what I am lacking at the moment. Not sure what happened?
Facebook happened!
What has it done to our social lives? Has it increased social activity due to ease of contact or has it decreased activity due to people now socializing via digital means instead of real live interaction?
I'm starting to get over the whole Facebook thing. They say the more online friends you have the fewer actual friends you have. I tried not adding everyone that I meet but then there is the politics of it not accepting friend requests, coz they know. I thought about unfriending people that I really don't need to know anymore but that didn't seem quite right either. And I find myself sensoring what I post on Facebook because of the range of people that I have on there. I know you can change all your settings so some people see certain things and others don't but that means wading through your friend list to categorize them all. Do you really wanna to be put in a box and categorized? Family, old friends, new friends, school friends, work friends, work friends from one job, work friends from another job, someone I met on holiday once, a friend of a friend who you got drunk with once...the list goes on.
I didn't realize how private I chose to be with certain people until FB. Odd thing to say when I am pouring out my thoughts in a blog that is more accessible than my FB page.
I realize there is a work me, a social me, a family me, and a private me. I used to be so focused when at work that I didn't really get to know anyone, and they didn't get to know me. It wasnt until I worked on a very different paced project that I relaxed enough at work to make friends. That's a bit sad really isn't it?
The freelance friend is a funny category. As a freelancer, you jump from project to project and it's now rare that I don't know someone from another job and it's all very friendly as long as you see each other. Once you take the need to spend time together away, then a friendship requires effort! And that's when it gets difficult.
Hmm, oh well, I know that in a few weeks time I will, once again be too busy to write these as I will be immersed in another all consuming project. I vowed not to let it take over my life last time, but it didn't work. Methinks I'm gonna have to shake things up a bit real soon!!!! Stay tuned...if you dare!
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