The End? ...Or is it?

So this could be rather monumental or it could be a big steaming pile of BS. I don't know yet.
But I think I am going to retire from my current 'so called' career. It hasn't been very nice to me over the years and I'm tired of it. So I'm done, moving on. I am deeply saddened to announce that it is over - that this relationship is terminated. But we can still be friends?

It's the longest relationship I have ever had with anything. I see people starting out in this industry full of energy, ideas and passion. While digging through some stuff  of mine I was reminded of when I was that cocky kid starting out  - full of passion and energy. I was going to be someone. I was going to make a difference. Maybe I did, Maybe I didn't - doesn't matter now.

I watched Pirates of the Caribbean - the latest one - the one shot here. Lovely to see familiar names float by in the credits. Proud to say "I once knew them" and their numbers are in my phone. But I also realised that my name won't be there and I don't care anymore.

It's been great but I think its time we went our seperate ways. My dedication and devotion to you has given me some treasured experiences but you have also kept me from other things in my life.

For years I have been saying "This is the year", "Bring it on", "Any second now". I have been waiting for something to present itself - it hasn't.

So what next?

I need to reinvent myself again. But where and towards what? Can't tell you coz then I have to kill you - no really, I can't coz I don't know.

And I somehow feel these pictures are related to what I am thinking right now?! No one can explain me - but its an egg!

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* I wrote this a few weeks ago - I'll keep you posted. Change is afoot!!