Yet somehow people seem to think I am out all the time? I have set a meeting for early tomorrow morning and my colleague said "if you are not too hungover". My parents are surprised if I can book in a Saturday night for a family dinner - "Aren't you going out??" they ask. Where and how did I develop such a reputation? (yes, I'm SO innocent!)
I probably would go out more if I had people to go out with. Here is my dilemma - we live in an ageing population, my friends are ageing. They don't go out anymore. I keep having to find younger and younger friends to keep doing what I like to do. The average age of my friends is now about 10 years younger than I am. And once they get a partner, they don't seem to need me around anymore. I never did get that. And I am quite capable of doing things on my own, I'm pretty good company. The schizo/ gemini in me means I can have great conversations with myself.
Here's another interesting thing. So I am at a friends BBQ. The friend is a male friend and his wife, we were old drinking buddies a few years back. So meeting others at the Q and it was automatically assumed that I was a friend of the wife's. Am I the only person that finds this odd? If men are only allowed to have men friends and women are only meant to have women friends why does the majority of society think coupling with the opposite sex is a good idea - makes homosexuality make more sense. Call me crazy but no matter what your sex, age, sexual preference, religion, what have you - I will pretty much treat you the same and I can become friends with you, unless you are an idiot that I don't care to know or until you find a partner and I get de-prioritised again.
People also seem to think I need to 'meet someone', couple me up, blah, blah blah. I am supposed to WANT this. And it baffles me!! Do I actually WANT a partner? Six years ago this week I got married, 3 years ago this week I got divorced. Am I happier now - YES! the difference? no husband!!!! Can someone please tell me why I want one? Ok, I never had to take out the garbage or change a lightbulb and it was much easier getting a load of groceries inside in one trip but what else did i get out of it? I guess I 'fit in' for a while and made my parents happy meanwhile spiralling myself into the deepest pit of depression I had ever experienced. Does that count?
Sorry, if it sounds a little bitter, but it is kinda where my head is at right now. I just don't think me and relationships really go together. I not writing it off, it's just not a priority. If you want a relationship with someone who spends her Saturday nights ranting about social norms and how I don't understand them then be my guest, give it a go - I dare you!
So for those of you who have actually stayed with me through this weeks rant, here's something much more fun - THE AVENGERS!!! I saw it this afternoon and it truly is awesome!! Not "Tin Tin awesome" but "lets destroy NYC with cgi effects and superheros triumphing over aliens from another world AWESOME". So if you want to watch a movie made to be seen at the cinema - Go see it!!!!Also, enjoying my quiet weekend because I am out Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday nights and Sunday afternoon next week. Then we start shooting the week after that - and that will mean I'm pretty much working, or sleeping for 4 weeks solid. So maybe no bloggy blog, we'll see how I go.
So- where do I get this reputation that I am always out, or hungover? Hi - have you read my blog?
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