Good morning SUNDAY!!!
The sun is shining, the weather is warm and I'm not hungover!!!

Why can't I dance before midnight? Am i showing my age when i ask what is wrong with wanting to dance sober before midnight, why does society make it difficult to do this? maybe I'm just hanging with the wrong crowd.

I was all geared up to go out with the girls last night- a week in the planning, names on door lists, that kinda thing. Saturday came and the plan was to meet at 10. All good, home form catching up with long lost friends at a christening and a good mid afternoon greek feed. time to chill for a bit, cancel dinner plans and get ready for that big night out. I was ready and out the door at 930 to find my friends were all still home grooming. No prob, let's go back inside and watch another 15 mins of an all-time favourite movie "the wedding singer".  It is soon past 10pm and I am way too comfy on the couch and there was only another 20 mins or so of the movie left. I take my heels off and make a firm decision that I am not going anywhere, I type a text to  a friend letting her know i wont be coming out and before i can hit send a text comes in saying "in cab, on my way". Seconds too late, sorry girls!!!

This is what my life has become. I don't want to go out late, binge drink and pick up strange young boys. I go to Christenings where i feel like a complete freak as a 30 something divorcee surrounded by families and couples. At one point I thought "should I have a 10 year old kid already?" Not baby or toddler but 10 year old? That is what went through my brain.

Sometimes I wish I was less ambitious and could just be happy with the simple things in life. My pre 20 boyfriends would have married me, I could of had kids and a house in the suburbs. I wonder how the me in that dimension is doing - is she happy? She is probably wondering what her life would of been like if she put travel and career before husband & family.

Anyhoo, I'm going to make a big batch of home made wontons now and then head to the pub with my mates.
(this is not a photo of MY wontons, but I'll take a photo once I've made them, ok.)