Merry Christmas vs Bah, Humbug?!

I should say Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all but I'm afraid it wouldn't be very sincere right now. I wish you all well,but I don't have the energy for a hearty, upbeat and cheery greeting.

The Christmas Spirit has had a little trouble finding me this year.
I had the usual lunch at my parents place surrounded by family, food and lots of lego (nephews) but having worked (and i use this term loosely as there was no financial gain) almost 22 days straight, possibly more, depending on where you wish to draw the line - excuse me if I am a little exhausted.

What was I so busy with??

I went to Dubbo for 17 days to work in some very muddy and unexpectedly cold conditions and I chose to sandwich that project with 2 short film projects - one of which was my very own where I had the thrill and honour to work with a much loved comedian from my younger days.

These little red boots were new and virginal on Day One in Dubbo. The photo to the left is what they spent most of the next 17 days looking like. I put them to rest in Dubbo as they had started to crack and die on me (photo to right).
They did me well and I was sad to see them go.  RIP little red boots!

And YES, I went to the Zoo in my  "downtime".   GO TEAM ZOO!!!


I got home form Dubbo on Monday night (after about a week of night shoots, so my body was kinda jet lagged) I spent the next 2 days set dressing and finalising all the requirements for my own project which I shot with friends on Thursday, Friday was running around between an Editor and de-dressing my set/location. Friday night - me time, so I did my grocery shopping and started cleaning the house, Saturday a deluxe car wash  while I finished my Christmas shopping, then home to cookie baking, present wrapping and a bottle of Sparkling Shiraz. ;-)

So, Christmas has felt like a bit of a chore and to be honest for a single woman in her late 30's,  it can suck a little. What does Christmas mean to you? It is a time to be surrounded by family, friends, and celebrating with loved ones. I have an amazing seafood meal with family and give gifts to those close to me - which is lovely but on the other side it can be a bit of a reminder of what I don't have. Oops, I have a career and an apartment in the eastern suburbs, did I forget to have a family? I am happy with who I am and the choices I have made in my life to get me to where I am but I am also home alone writing this blog on Christmas night. Nuff said.

I don't write this for your sympathy or your pity - it's simply what is in my head right now.

This week I also found proof that I can sleep walk - it was pretty freaky!!

love what you do!

I'm sure no one missed me last week. I have been in Dubbo for work playing in the mud.

This is the only industry I know where people are willing to work so hard and not get paid - and why? Because we love it!!!

Passion. I am SO lucky to have a job that I really enjoy. I am spending 12 hours running around in sun, rain, dirt, mud, day, night, hot and cold with people who are just as in love with what they do and it is great being surrounded by like minded people.

If you are a regular reader here you will know how miserable i got when i took the office job. never again. I'm sticking to doing what I know and love. AND it's always different project by project, always new challenges.

I don't have a lot on my mind right now other than being very busy with my passion until early next year and beyond. I will probably have more to say towards the end of the year. I tend to start reassessing things again. With a birthday in June and then new years, i do this quite regularly - where am i? what have i done with myself and what's the next step.

I'm excited at the moment - it can only get better, right. life is good.